For the past few weeks…No, actually, for the past few months, there’s been a resounding theme in my mind: Sacrifice.
Sacrifice is never something that we want to readily do, or ever do, though often times it is necessary to get to the next step in our goals/life. A lot of times, we sacrifice things we want to do for the sake of others, unbeknownst to them.
My Season of Sacrifice, however, was more involved, and is STILL involved, with my finances. Even though other parts of my life have been flourishing this year, my finances have been severely fluctuating, more so than I cared to admit. I found myself asking others for help with bills and such, something I never thought I’d have to do. Though half of my financial position wasn’t all my fault, I did unfortunately contribute to it. Now, with it being November 12th, 2019, I’m still fighting this uphill battle to get out of it.
“You gotta do what you gotta do, but you also gotta take care of yourself in the process. If you don’t, you won’t be able to do, what you gotta do.”
Are things turning around? Yes, of course, slowly, but surely. Do I wish it would get better faster? Absolutely. However, God knows that I won’t learn what I need to learn if everything suddenly got better tomorrow, and this is the part I’m struggling with the most.
My Season of Sacrifice looked like this:
- Moving out of my 1st real apartment, and back in with my parents
- Asking for some financial assistance to help pay off some bills
- Getting a second job that ultimately kept me exhausted 100% of the time
- Canceling my Adobe Creative Cloud Subscription & Website
- Moving into a much, much smaller apartment
I’m sure there’s more, but these were the most prevalent events.
The two events that stood out the most and really in a sense, hurt the most, was having to cancel my Creative Cloud and getting a second job. I’m a Graphic Designer (that does a plethora of other things), and the Creative Cloud was the main thing allowing me to do this. Yes, I am aware of the copious amount of free programs out there, HOWEVER. It was convenient for me to have access to that specific software, especially since a lot of bigger companies use the same software for their businesses.
Getting a second job meant I had to sacrifice my social life. I’m sure you’re probably thinking, “oh, you pooooor thing, boo hoo.” Listen. Here’s the thing about that: I struggled with this a lot too because I am the type of person that likes to be around my friends and family as much as I can (one of my love languages is definitely Quality Time). That’s just something I need that helps with my sanity. On top of the obliteration of my social life, my health got roped into the equation because a month and a half later, I ended up in the hospital. Now, I’m not complaining. The extra money did help, so it did what it was supposed to do. However, I was entirely too exhausted and I didn’t even have time for myself.
I’m not giving up though. To offset having to quit the second job I obtained, I am currently looking into jobs I can do from home part time, as well as tutoring (more to come on the tutoring). I still need a supplemental stream of income, until my main income increases.
In closing, like I mentioned before, sacrifice is sometimes necessary. I’m grateful for the sacrifice, because in that period of time, in that time of adversity, it caused me to very carefully weigh all of my options and lean on God for even more guidance and understanding that I was lacking. Money isn’t everything, but how we spend our money, how we define it, plays a big role in how our lives will operate. In other words, don’t work yourself to death because society is out here telling you, “you gotta do what you gotta do.” While this is true, that statement needs to be expanded to: “You gotta do what you gotta do, but you also gotta take care of yourself in the process. If you don’t, you won’t be able to do, what you gotta do.”
Thoughts to Think On:
Money is a tool.
No job is worth your mental, physical and spiritual health.
Work smart, and work hard, but not too hard.