Weight Gain Struggle

Okay. So, if many of you don’t know, I have Crohn’s disease. To make a long story short, I had a major surgery back in 2011 because I was real sick and didn’t know, but God is good, so I’m okay now.

HOWEVER. Because of this Crohn’s disease, it’s a struggle for me to keep my weight up sometimes. I don’t really help the situation either because I’d rather sleep than stuff my face with food 24/7. In other words, I’m incredibly lazy for no reason, LOL.

Anyway, I went to the doctor yesterday for a follow-up from a Colonoscopy and MRI I had done at the end of December. She basically told me that I have to gain weight to where I weigh 120 lbs within six weeks (i.e. my next appointment) or else. I have until March 12th to gain….2 POUNDS. Yes, right now I currently weigh 118.4 lbs. I’m going to go beyond that though, at least to 125.

You know…I do like to eat. I honestly do. But when I have to force myself to eat…when I have to force myself to do ANYTHING…it becomes a chore. Am I alone in feeling that way? I’m the same way with reading (having to read chapters for class when I was in college was such a DRAG…), but I absolutely love to read. When I’m forced to do it, I suddenly don’t want to do it anymore.

But, Bianca…if you love doing it, you shouldn’t feel like you’re being forced…

Yeah, I don’t know either.

SO. Every week, I shall be weighing myself. I really don’t want to know what this “or else” is… Everyday I shall be inhaling food akin to my pink and chubby inspiration, Patrick:

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I’m going to be able to fill my clothes out again, y’all. It’s not like I’m walking around with stuff hanging on me, but I used to weigh 140 lbs three years ago.

I don’t want to attribute all my weight loss to this Crohn’s disease though. There were a lot of other factors, college was getting real, I started having panic attacks and yeah it was just a lot going on.

I’m going to do my best to not view this as a chore, but as a means to being a lot healthier and more energetic all together! I probably should be exercising more too…one thing at a time, girl. One thing at a time.

Pray for me, haha.

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